totally not in a good mood .
but , i still put on myself as usual .
no worried guys , i will take care of myself de . && stay happy
xie xie ni men de guan xin !
am i acting that nothing had happened actually ? i donno ?

someone agree that i've grow up ! ahas xD

&& i learn to be strong !

flunk my social studies and geography . LOLs
ms lim was freaky funny loh . act cute seh ! LMAO~
chinese lesson went to ava room . weeeeeeeeeeeeeeets
were discussing about our class T-shirt during LCD lesson .
isn't it a bit late ? hmmmm ... ..
assembly , not that boring actually . i thought was like ~~
choir after school .
can't get the pitch right . LOLs xD !
but , everything seems fine .

having my english oral presentation tomorrow . grrrrr
prepared my script half-way !
choir tomorrow too . guess i will be ~~~~ sososo

yoke thin says i don't feel sad at all .
what can i do even if i am sad ?
i regretted it at first .
but what came up my mind is ... ... ...
things can't be change now .
im-sorry ]:
take care

tomorrow will be 28february2007 , if i didnt chose to leave ,

it will be 2month . but ... ... ]:

ii ADORES JOHNATHON ; my gan DI DI . haas xD!

26FEBRUARY2007 ; MONDAY

i chose to leave , i chose to give up .

im-sorry . but , i have no other choice .

thanks for giving me beautiful memories , while i will keep in my heart .

until now , i guess both of us are tired already . therefore , it is time to separate

i will still treat you as my friend , and i hope you too .

28december2006 - 26february2007 ; sixty -one days !

it's gone .

everytime starts on a wednesday , and end on a monday ! grrrrrrr !

stay happy always . take care !

while , school as per normal .

my two kor gave me the encourage and they encourage me to do that .

maybe i will regret , but it's over .

let bygones be bygones . we shall stay happy from now .

do whatever you want , i can't bother about it anymore .

wake up late today luhs* cause i didn't have a good sleep .
took a cab to school , but it still late .
pe , suddenly feel dizzy . hais , im sick again ]:
don't really have the mood loh .
thanks for everyone's caring .
aizat ask me about what happened to my hand ? another one , hees
being burnt luhs .
suprise that i just pass my math test , i didn't perform well in that paper acutally.
i thought i will fail , but i got a just pass .
after school went to cwp with jia le and yoke thin .
had our lunch at food mall .
i saw many of my friends there .
chunwai them , chen zi choon woon . kelvin shirley . and and ex- school mates !
take care .
off to pupolar , wanna look for the english-chinese dictionary .
kor and pei hao called . ask me to go with them .
but seriously , i really don't want to go . i want to take a rest . hahas .
i off toodles .

`STOP calling me can ?
i getting irritating .
i don't really know you can .
*pissed me off

22FEBRUARY2007 , FRIDAY

school as usual . boring !

hais . during e-maths , got canning luhs* im sorry sad , and worried .

tears rolled down my cheek when it's derick turn .

so is like , everybody turn and look at me . walao~ all say i because of derick .

please luhs* im that scared can ! but , they must bear their consequences luhs

two of them is my kor , one my sun zi , another one is my ehem ehem . last two is jokers ! gees xD

rumours start about me and derick - again . please STOP !

chinese lesson , got back our electronic dictionary . don't know how to use at all .

whole class had our geography (open book ) RETEST .

choir after school , doing the warm-ups . and i was so gong and paiseh can .

cause i like going to sang out of tune and can't reach those high pitch .

sore throat coming again ! ):

split for SYF sectional , doing everyone sang and festival santus .

going to fall asleep le . i very tired

combined again and sang . then dismissed

when to canteen to wait for the rain to stop . and i saw kalen kor ! and friends - jun kai and pei hao

saw jing han too . IMISSHIM ! xD

my first time seeing him this year . he transfer school , sad ):

im glad that he's fine . look smart uhs ! gees

he says he came back to school often but he didn't saw me .

while i say i didn't saw him too , he says , i must open my eyes big big ! diao =.=

take care boy ! seeya again [:

company kor to mos burger to eat his dinner . he's hungry

bus-ed with them , pei kor turn one round again . and he's off .

left me and pei hao

stupid bangala , sat beside me , so noisy and smelly ! xD

dropped off at 146 there , and walk home alone . reached home about 8pm

and pei hao message me , ask if i have reach home .

both of them keep asking me to go out with them tomorrow . but i don't want

`should i take their advice .

i need time .

i don't want to us end up just like that .

maybe that's our fate . and it stop

i've not been a good stead to you .

对不起！ 我不敢再要就什么！

不要再浪费时间 ， 我也给一个机会 ， 让你好好的爱她 ！

时间到了， 我们的缘分也就此节速 ！

不要再相信我 。

late to school today ! while , i did it purposely . haas !
don't want to have mass-run too . my knee injured
awaken by johnathon message - again ! grrrr
he's asking me about yokethin de thing again . put silent le , and back to sleep . xD
didnt saw johnathon and yokethin message luhs . lucky
cant get back to sleep already , but it only 730+ and then .
turn here and there . no choice , dont feel like going so early ! xD
alarm rang at 830am , finally luhs* hees , time past so slow this morning .
brush and bath , and off to school .
get my breakfast first . reached school around 940am .
sign in and went into office to look for molly !
just nice , recess time .
he keep me waiting for about 10mins . he doing the camera thingy , zoom in and out .
hellos , im still there waiting okay !
back to class and like , people saying wa , so early uhs , gees .

chinese lesson , took back our paper . shit ! i lost to eddie by 1.5 marks and owe him 2 packet of milk !
chit chatting away with marco , eddie kor , si ah ben sun zi cum partner , derick , james and ah ting hui
only our voice loh . joking and laughing away .
maohanhan keep asking us to do the correction but we refused to ! gees
anyway , i dont have alot of corrections to do , xD .!

F&N , they took back their paper , but i still have to wait until next week .
what the ... ... !
guess is fail de loh .
express de paper , it's difficult . plus i didnt study much for my re-test .
i thought it is as simple as the paper we took . but i was wrong .
what amino acid . what example ? like shit . i give up & don't wanna do it .

eventually i failed chemistry but passed english and chinese .
e-maths , physics , geography , social studies , f&n was ready to fail le . haas
didnt really study at all ! study le , also forgot . cant get in to my brain !

after school , stayed back and slack at classroom with jiale and yokethin .
im so bored . mummy called when i was like wanted to fall asleep le
went to cwp food mall to eat fruits . then back to vista point .
yokethin wanna eat mashed potato
jiale is so lucky luhs . took the same bus with marco .
saw kalen kor at interchange . he pei me take 911 and i pei him turn one round to custom !
im a good mei mei okay xD

don't really wanna attend school tomorrow .
um tired !

hope everything will be alright ]: ! im worried !
class canning is better than public canning .

i am somehow suay yesterday luhs .
fall down when i wanted to take a bath at the kitchen .
then stupid shoe is so slippery and cause me to fall down .
hurt my two knee , elbow my stomach and knock my teeth ><
back to my grandma house after blogging and bathing .
hide ourselves at grandma's room , and were gossip about my grandma's neighbour
while they gambling black jack at the living room . hoos
he is that kind of drama papa who likes to act ! omg ! why not he go be a actor ? hees xD
and xia xue , my cousin ( not her real name ) keep on di siao-ing him . lalalas~
eventually , he got stroke before .
he lost around 100bucks and back to his home . serve him right , who ask him to be so proud of himself when playing black jack ! hahas xD
and it was like he was being fool by us .
keep saying '' 各位观众 '' ! LMAO [:
getting a bit sick yesterday night .
xie xie ta , pei me sms ! hurs , if not i was like don't know what to do there ! so bored
take a rest at 1am ! while the others continue their cards and mah jong !
so is like , until 5am then finish . was so tired luhs*
woke up at 9+ this morning by johnathon message . its only a morning ! grrrrr
fall asleep again . then woke up at 11am+ . haaas
reply message to him , johnathon and jaslyn aiai . bill gonna burst - again
tomorrow need to go back to school lerhhs . somehow so siian loh
off toodles !

*pictures to be upload soon

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !

alright . sleep almost 12hours since new year eve .

i'm tired , but definitely i'm not a PIG ! gees

thanks to HIM , xie xie ta .

i don't feel any new year mood this year .

it makes alot of different when xiao jiu de friends all didn't come ,

is rather quiet as compared to the past CNY i had !

and that andy is so funny , sending those stupid and lame message ! xD

yesterday , when to my uncle house at yishun , then to my da gu house .

this is my first year going to my da gu house , LOLs xP .!

not that close to them at all ! back to my grandma house .

and i becoming a santa clus . ahaas

a free show of lion dance this year - again , today !

perhaps , i can say is every second day of chinese new year , there's free show of lion dance . haas

hai feng came today . he so cute ! i simplyADORES him <333

他长大了！

and his mei mei - shi en !

i thinking how i shall spent my day tomorrow .

i wanna go K ! haas xD . but i broke by being a santa clus ! haas [:

i'm wondering how he is now ? also don't know when he is back .

my back is ache , having headache . some many ache , LOLs !

don't know what time i will be sleeping tonight .

and don't know i how i will be sleeping ! gees .

gonna be a PIG - again .

I'M s SANTA CLUS !

love - chocolates !

that's ME

i'm just myself .

no one can judge ME !

chinese lesson was a bored one .
combined with 3N1 in the ava room to watch movie .
siian , ii falling asleep loh . hahas !
then , total defence day cum CNY celebration .
cant get to watch the show luhs
i really hate those secondary 1s de choir members loh .
so suck sia , seems to have no discipline at all !
the sec4 leader keep shouting them , asking them to keep quiet but they were still busy talking .
ii wondering what so good to talk about . cant they keep their mouth shut for that 1min ?
amd ii just scolded a boy , called ivan , he so suck can .
keep staring at me jiale yokethin aiai and yuhui .
he so damn noisy , so ii ask him to keep quiet then he stared at me , wth !
so what if he got medical illness ! so what if he is a sec1 boy !
you think ii care ?!

hais . dont really have a good mood luhs !
think back of those memories again . sobsob ]: and tears starts to roll down my cheeks again
went to cwp with jiale yokethin aiai and chloe laogong ! weeeeeets
was about to go home , sister called and ask me where am i !
walao~ she wants me to wait for her friend to come .
then ask me to walk around first . wth !
ii waited for an hour okay !
hmm , chloe laogong went back to malaysia lerhs .
as well as dear luhs ! xP
i will miss you de . hees , xD .! lalalas~

`i fear of thunder , i fear of lightning .
please stop raining !


forget about the past , forget about everything . ]:
that's what i can do , and everything else should be fine then !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAN SHENG WEI ! <333

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JUNRU & FIRDAUS !

i get enough !

i starts to LOST myself .

i not myself , i don't know what i thinking about .

what i want actually ? i don't know .

perhaps , what i got , is not what i !

iWANTogobacktothePAST ,

which i know it is impossible .

seeing you happy , makes me happy as well !

i starting to feel that i myself is a BITCH.

WHY ? WHY ? and WHY ?

everything changed suddenly !

i am sorry to you ! but , things can't be changed !
what done cannot be undone !

dui bu qi . ]:

had e-maths and geography test today loh .
prepared to fail both .
actually wanna borrow calculate from mr billy , cause ii forget to bring , then he ask me to go to the staffroom to look for him during recess .
so ask andy to pei me go , but he's not there .
he actually forgotten !
but ting hui help me borrow from the sec 2s ,
thank ting hui ! [:
today chinese lesson was ~hilarious luhs
having chinese paper two , then some of them play the HEY beautiful , and power rangers de tone , and the XIAO BAI ! ni zai na li . LOLs
and it was like so noisy , but ii cant concentrate on my test .
and that maohanhan confiscated my handphone today . wtf !
but jun wei help me to take back when he is going out .
thanks jun wei ! [:
half-way through e-maths test , maohanhan came to our class and say ,
'' those four students which ii gave them 0 marks just now come and see me after school '' ,
( me , si ah ben , shirley and kin onn ah gong )
walao ~ ii was sleeping that time norhs .
tomorrow have physics test . i HATE PHYSICS ! xD
will be having F&N and chinese paper two re-test tomorrow after school . wt ..
will be very late for choir . die*
so many test . siao liao larhhs

`_i get enough of you !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NURAINI !

I LOVE TAN SHENG WEI ! <333

muackks [:

common test began , today is the second day .
hmm , yesterday had our english and social studies paper .
and today had our mother tongue and chemistry paper .
prepared to fail lerhs luhs ! haas
tomorrow will be having e-maths and geography paper ,
haven even study , even if i have study , i also cant get into my mind .
cause all ii thinking was ..... ... ! lalalas~
choir after school ,
have to sing level by level , then when sec 3s sing ,
my handphone suddenly rang can , it was like paiseh de loh .
yihuan msg me . ii shocked dao loh
fine 10$ , cause CMC ! siian , but as usual didnt pay . xD
for my own opinion , ii think the sec 2s sound better than the sec 3s loh .

* ii want my hand to recover ! it so disgusting can !

I LOVE TAN SHENG WEI <333

muackks :D

CONFUSED*

he's gone , and never return again !
he's back again now , making me complicated ! ):
what's wrong with me ? iim afraid !

took class photo yesteday ! fun-shot is totally not fun for me !
i miss 1N2 '05 & 2N2 '06 .
our memories , our laughters , our joy , our happiness !
thank to > MR.HENG , who taught us attitude .
he brought us out to be the united class ! WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS ! xD
rememeber those days we fool around each other .
THE MOST UNITED CLASS I EVER GOT !
I MISS THEM ALOTS ! i miss my sister-s! i miss faiz , i miss firdaus ! i miss hariz ! i miss mao mao !
THEY ARE THE BEST ! THEY ROCK MY LIFE !
dont forget me friends , even we are in different class this year !
and ii kinda shocked when firdaus remember my voice . LOLs

i can never get well along 3N2 , besides those N2'er .
perhaps , i starts to dislike this class .

mother tongue is so funny can ! fun like hell . [:
again - the Hey Beautiful and tone sounds like bomb from handphone coming out again - hilarious luhs*
and maohanhan thought is someone whistle like a bird .
she wrote in the record book > '' there's bird whistling , it too difficult for me to find out who it is '' LOLs!
her english is great !
she want to send the whole class for mass detention on monday . cause she thought that there's people whistling , and that person doesnt wan to admit , but actually it is played from marco's and andy's handphone .
had recess assembly at hall .
PUBLIC CANNING ! wooooots .
first public canning in 2007
then , two period of chemistry , the NUMBER ONE lesson . almost falling asleep , it bored !
took out penknife and start to cut my hand again!
had math test again! guess ii gonna fail this time round .
ii donno how to make __ as a subject , it so confusing
went home immediately after school , bus-ed home with jiale , jaslyn aiai , shipraph mei and xue yun
first time , so early reached home on a friday afternoon . haas
on com . chatted with him for awhile , and kena said by him again ! dont blame me for cutting

brother went to take his O'level result .
he actually failed , cause he failed his english . and ii thought he could get a good great .
he work so hard for his O's last year and yet the result came out to be like this . ii wondered !
he feel sad now .

Common Test start next monday . haven study yet ! guess im going to fail again !


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO XUEYUN !
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO VIVIEN LIM !
message to jiale , jaslyn aiai , chloe laogong and yuhui :
we have to be STRONG !
learn to put down the past .
let it be bygones .
past is past , bygones is bygones > that's what ii always said !
we used to be happy ones !

i hate that bitch !
you are the one who make me calling you a bitch
stop showing me your attitude .
everyone have their own limit !
and i enough of this .
stop saying me when you are one of those TOO !
you are just making a fool of yourself !
so you thought that ii dont know that is you ? you are wrong !
it is obviously YOU !
proof it to me if you think you are right .
dont ever judge me !
so what if you are one year older than me , you still have NO right to judge me
say yourself before saying others .
think CAREFULLY before you act !

I LOVE TAN SHENG WEI <333

what have ii done wrong ? ii donno , but ii'm asking myself
CONFUSED*
um' thinking , um' deciding , um' considering !
not in a good mood today at all .
ii have been putting a fake smile all day . while , some really cheer me up . thanks guys ! [:
during F&N lessons , marco and benjamin di siao-ing me AGAIN !
and ii was getting angry in the end which ii really have no mood to joke with them .
so , marco did ask me what happened to me ? so , ii told him what really bother me so much .
feels great when teacher never scold us > CA yvonne ting hui and me sorry to show my attittude to YOU !
whereby , ii really have no mood to wait for you guys anymore .
WE waited you guys for AN HOUR ! its tiring can
SORRY !
ii wanna to be happy . but ii can't . putting on a fake smile is what ii can do , so that ii don't wanna you guys to worry about me .
really thanks for some of your concern . (:

`once again, although ii will regret but ii have no other choice ! HURTS

ii don't really have the mood to blog .
um utterly disappointed with him ! ii've nothing to say anymore , and ii am waiting .
althought ii will regret one day . but ... please , ii really very tired le .
feel like dying . ii have nothing , LOST .
everything , everyone is fake !
frustrated with alot of things !
> him > friendship > family > studies .
I REALLY HATE MYSELF ! ii asking why am ii leaving in this world .
why am ii brought to earth ?
ii don't give it a damn .
ii hate it . ii simply hate myself . ii hate everything around !
i've change ! ):
and ii crying , crying and crying . ii have nothing to say anymore , ii dont know what to do anymore !
just FUCK OFF !

again - choir . was still tired although i slept early yesterday night
huihan was late , caused he overslept ! hahas x))
scolded by judith when choir start .
she told ms yee not to come , caused there's more than 10 absentees , including those red dots .
whereby , ms yee also said she won't be coming in if there's more than 10 absentees on tuesday practices
so , ms yee didnt come .
we learn our chinese new year song first . showed them how the dance be like .
merry-go-round !
sectional , festival santus followed by everyone sang . elaine and me doesn't know what to do , hahas ! ~blur*
so it was like ~ ehem ehem !
back and combined . judith want us to sang row by row . no choice !
singing was ehem ehem , lousy was what i can say . the voice was ... ... in the end got 3/10 - judge by judith .
ends around 1230pm , and i received msg-es from chloe laogong , laogong and benjamin .
went to viva with clara and jaslyn aiai . while shipraph and xueyun took 901 back .
back home and mummy actually scared me ! turned green !
on computer and stuff !
mummy started to nag at me when she saw me using my phone .
supposing to meet chloe laogong at 3pm . but in the end i didnt meet her le , cause my mummy was nagging at me which makes me lose of mood to go out anymore .
started to feel stress and stuff ! lack of confidential .
that's not the person she used to be ! she used to be stubborn .
what's wrong with her this few days ? i don't know
nothing much to elaborate .

can't throw anythings to them currently , i don't trust it , and um afraid
um tired * getting enough of everything . i just want to be myself

i'm considering ,

i'm deciding ,
i'm thinking

and , i'm wondering .
confused !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAN WEI ZHI , GARY ! =)

dear is back from camp le
hahas , i missssssss him .! :D

will be having choir tomorrow , guess is sectional ba .
cause the sec4s will not be coming tomorrow .
hope not doing warm ups tomorrow . i pray !

I LOVE TAN SHENG WEI <333

muackss :D

lesson as usual . had 2.4 trail run earlier this morning .
tired* the timing was like , so slow can ~ 15min plus and was the forth girl to finish
stomach suddenly cramp when running the forth round , cant take it so i squat down and take a rest
elliyana hanisah and hui juan overtake me . hahas
take back chemistry test which we did it last friday , wooooots . pass seh , miracle luhs xP .!
had alot of test this week , can common test 1 is coming . 2WEEKS!
have to buck up le , must start to revise liao . especially physics !
ms lim didn't come , so mrs choo gave us some work to do .
cause we had two e-maths teacher , if not is relief teacher
havent done andy's , marco's and mine evaluate . diedie liao
nothing much to elaborate

* this few days don't really know what happened to me ? cry easily
keep crying . sobsob )':
CONFUSED me !