last day of school le .
zen me ban ? cannot see him le . 2 months , its long can !!! =(
haiis , seem like no one appeal sucessfully luhs .
yiheng still retain leh . haiis , ii cry siia .
maris them tot ii like him liydat . but of course not
only that ii dowan him to retain . sobsob ='(
my eyes swollen siia . donno what happened ? suddenly swollen .
not because ii cry ! thank
but ytd is worst ba ! pain nehx =X

imisshim lots =X
do cinderalla exist ?

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

stay at home for the whole day . goin to turn rot llerhhs
shirley laogong ask me out , but ii never go out
yokethin aiai me out , ii osoh never go out
she ask me at night go cycling . ii wan go , but ii cant .
hmm , long time no went cycling too . =D
somemore ii don have the mood to go out today =(
sorry guys !
wake up around 9.30 . iim bored .
find something to do . listen to music , play games .
haiis , have been thinking of him again ! asking myself many questions again !
ii just gonna force myself to do things ii don like again .
have been thinking through out the whole morning lluhs
what wrong with me ? holiday are coming . ii seems to be more troubling .
iireallymisshim x)

beautifulbygones
simplelovehim

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3>

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

TIME flies . it have been 3weeks long !
come monday again =((

HAPPY FOR MRs.penguin and MR.penguin .
must remember 23october06 hoh . gees
haiis , another 23rd again . august osoh 23rd . now osoh 23rd . =(

today went to macRitchie reservoir . tired
early in the morning , walk here and there .
the road was slippery . some ppl almost fall down . hahas =P
was sweating all over . but it was not tiring .
the distance was short leh .
expect to be tiring and long distance as how jian an says like .
but actually not really =D
on the way back to school , regina was being bully by eddie and afiq .
push her in the bus . walao .
regina size so small , eu used so much strength to push her .
do eu noe wad is pain ? eu wan try bo ?
jian an felt angry , wanted to beat them up . but in the end orf course not .

result was out . haiis
was the only one stay in N2 while maris regina shujie laykim went to N1 .
but can take the course ii wanted =X
siianx =(( poor regina DNT . but she appeal to A-math . hope it will be sucess
wondering how 3N2 going to be like ?
sobsob , yiheng retain . ii dowan him to retain .
iiwill MISSeuu dde .
he appeal to normal technical . ii rather he drop to NT then retain norhhs .

poor regina , kept crying . for that desmond . he cold-blooded can !
back to class , watch some video clips shown by MR.cheng .
his clips was funny . the class laugh until ... ... DOTZ
so , MS .sng came , was her period . but we still wan watch MR.cheng clips again .
said the last time can le . MS .sng watch it too .
but MR.cheng forbid us to laugh . have to watch quietly . cant see our teeth ! =X
really funny can . jian an laugh until like hell siia . banging !!

wondering how wednesday MRS.song farewell going to be like ?
how the HOD department sounds like ?
today rehearsing was funny . laugh until like siao chabo
the teachers are funny can
like out of tune . molly , hahas =X
lets imagine !

ii need you .
wohaishiaini . =(
when will your return ?
time flies . you're gone

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

TIME flies . it have been 3weeks
haiis . 好回味 orhh !
iiMISShim . simply love him .
left 2days . then holiday le
2months cannot see him , it long can !
got fate , can see him dde . but ii noe , there's no fate between us =(
but hope holiday can forget about him .
think back last year de nov/dec holiday .
it fun , great ! ii loveit . memorable
many beautifulmemories , with laughter and sickness
but time flies so fast . 1year gone soon !
then , everything will be changing . iwill be changing , he willtoo .
here am ii , wanting him to be happy . =) smile can !
ur smile makes me happy ! lalalas =P
iijust simply loveyou

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

went out with shirley laogong and jinghan ytd . =D
went to cwp to watch movie .
meet shirley around 2.45 . but we met each other about 3 .
went to mac to have my lunch . hungry =X
awhile lata jinghan came . hoho
found out that he haven eat . but ask him whether he wan to eat , he say don wan . =(
actually wan watch death note de . but the tickets were sold out . sobsob =(
so we watch ROB-B-HOOD .
quite funny and touching , crying =X
jinghan say he watch before . haiis . we are wasting his money ?
the cinema is damn freaky cold .
were shivering through out the show .
reach home around 7.30 .
yuppie

today in class watch The Incredibles for an hour 30 minutes .
quite tiring . but the show was funny . jack jack was so cute !
haiis . yuan and mira was quarralling during art lesson .
mira cry . wa , she so poor thing .
yuan was angry . she just scolded many ppl . look scary .
donno wad happened to her ? suddenly so angry .
up to hall for a talk .
hmm , keep laughing there . =D


when can ii talk to you again ?
ii don wish all this thing to happen .
ii just wanna tell ii still love you .
=(

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

today get back e result .
hmm , soso lloh . fail 3 subjects .
so suprise that ii can pass some subjects .
class position 25/40 ? level position - 53
haiis . ii the one remaining in N2 . sobsob ='(
but remain n N2 might take F&N . YEAH YEAH ! =))
N1 is A-math and DNT ! both not strong in . hahas
somemore my overall merit is so lousy . 676/1300 , 52.2% damn it !

all secondary 2 classes get to watch musical high school in the hall after getting the result .
but we , 2N2 was so pathetic . staying in class for the DNT course . freaky siianx .
going to fall asleep llerhhs . only the teachers are talking , while we are going to fall asleep ,
lying down the table , doing our own things .
then they teach us how to draw . wakaox .
draw here and there , erase here and there .
during break time , get to go hall to watch the high school musical awhile . =D
pathetic us (marco eddie kuohao derick james shujie laykim maris )
sitting behind watching . and have to be silence ,
if not teacher know we were there . =D
haiis , went back to class again . brainstorming . must do the ideation
but ii was not listening to the teacher at first , drawing my own things . hahas =P
YEAH YEAH ! finally can start to do the product . LAMP
was quite fun actually .
slacking during lunch time . walking here and there .
get to know what e secondary 2s are doing .
playing english de don noe what thing . but is something like complete the sentences .
look fun , but is tiring . difficult to find the answers .
blaming teacher for putting our course today ! hmph
slack slack slack !!

IIMISSHIM =(

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

*SUPPOSE TO BE 2MONTHS , BUT IT TURN OUT TO BE TWO WEEKS ! =((

come monday again . ii hate monday =(
it make me think of alot of things . haiis
crying ='(
ii have been thinking of alot of things since this evening !
between many of them
wondering . talk to 2 of my fren ( aiai and luoyun )
they gave me their advise , but ... ... DOTZ
haiis . how can they help me ? how can ii help myself ?
the problem turn out to me , if ii have forgotten him , it wont be liydat !
thinking here thinking there
ii know what ii wish now will never happen .
it would only happen in my dream

haven take back history and DNT paper !
tomorrow going to frog farm . should be bored ?
wednesday got DNT course , feel so boring !

IIMISSHIM

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

LEARN TO LET BYGONES BY BYGONES ! =((

exam finish . take back result . got good , got bad .

the most pathetic is my art . only 20/100 ! 20 ONLY !

wondering , wondering , wondering .
ytd nitex still laugh at edwin . but now is his turn to laugh at me .
some even worst got 10 niia . hahas =D
now only history and D&T haven take back ba .
got worried about my math this morning . cos only got 47 .
but lucky , the teacher counted e marks wrongly . then got 50 just pass . phui~
but 50 , still very lousy lloh . haiis . many careless mistake too .
me like still haven forget about him , about everything .
ii am stuck now . hahas . ytd told regina something about JH ,
shujie heard it . she gave me a angry face . wow =D
talk with jaslyn ytd , tok until 16 October is coming .
haiis , talk until ii cry . cos orf him . lalalas

cherish everything now before its gone !

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

不在乎有没有以后；只在呼曾今拥有。

it have been 8days after that night .
was heartbroken . but , should forget about everything and look forward .
time cannot be brought back .
what mine is mine , what not mine is not mine .
how i keep , end up it still wont be mine .
how much iiLOVEhim , he will never return .
i can only pretend that iiHATEhim , pretend that he doesnt exist ,
pretend that i never known him .
now that you leave , only hope you see you happy . smiling =)
remember the time i found myself back , but i since the day , i lost myself again .
i was stuck . currently , looking for myself .
i must look forward .
learn to let bygones by bygones .
trying to forget about everything , especially him .
but i once said , it is hard for me to forget him ='(
haiis , what to do ? hate myself . why am i in this world ?
i gonna ask many WHY ? again !
living in a incomplete world .
saying GOODBYE to him .
now , what i can do is , pretending to be happy =)

tears drop down my cheeks now . fcuk .
why should i cry ? is not worth !
STOP CRYING . ( i am lame ) LOLs

looking back the day 16august2006 cum 2october1006
只想告诉你：我爱你！

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

八天前的我 ， 还在为他哭泣 ！

yuppiie . today is the last day of End-Of-Year exam .
no more exam llerhhs . wasui . finally too , phui~
haiis . today de D&T sure fail dde lloh .
lost almost 36 marks . going 40+ llerhhs leh . diedie llerhhs .
lata kena scold by neo then cham ars ! LOLs =X
never finish e orthographic leh . then time up . don care just crash away .
anyway , that drawing are wrong . have to re-do de . then time up . no use ! sobsob ='((
left many blanks infront osoh . diedie
tot got how easy . but yet .
now is to wait to get back the results .

after exam , went to mac to eat breadfast . hoho =X
hmmm , shujie have to faster eat faster go . LOLs
e counter dde ppl , really very wad dde lloh .
take wrong my order . but nvm llarhhs .
omg ! heard 1new . unbelievable , my TIAN !
feel so poor thing for e both orf them . the boi boi and the girl girl .
but serve e boi boi right . LOLs .
maris went home llerhhs . me and regina went to kiddy palace to buy pen knife .
ii bought a doreamon de pen knife . so cute .
regina bought e kokomu dde ba . ii think .
sae wanto exchange one , but never . forget llerhhs =X
went home . so siianx siia . nothing to do .

hmmm , tml no school . maris them go out . but ii dowan go . hehes .
so nan de .
all hao peng you go ii never go .
got JOE them ba . ii think . nvm , got chance again dde .


only want to be happy !
learn to let bygones by bygones ! ='((

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

LOLs . rush for my dinner ytd nitex .
never ate much . only a fews bites niia .
in the end my cousin say me go meet my stead .
but too bad , ii don have !
just broke up on monday niia !!
finish eating rush back home to change
dhen went to interchange to meet maris and yokethin .
wahahas , dhen went to vista shop & save to look for junru , chenzi .
meet them there !
both calling miie , where am ii ? reaching ?
reach there junru : very early hoh . =.=
weihan come , dhen go play candles at vista park .
many ppl there .
dhen chenzi and weihan went off . think iis go look for his friends .
cos many ppl , no place for us .
sobsob . left us behind . LOLs .
dhen we go e rock there . if not junru going kb lerhhs .
she say haiis , if liydat going on , ii no need play llerhhs .
cos she need to go home at 10PM . that time iis 9+ lerhhs .
a while yiheng andy and william came .
they was so funny lloh .
was laughing and joking away .

andy make de star . =))


look so bloody . omg !

andy and junru went home at 10+ . mummy called back .
ii say they go pah taw .
goin 11 lerhhs . dhen we went home .
go vista buy water .
e water suck like hell . no taste , for hu to drink .
drank one time then throw into e rubbish bin .

reach home around 11.30 liydat .

sleep zzz . tired

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

haiis .
today geography paper . prepared to fail badly again .
cos ii never study . only READING cum study niia .
ytd nite boxin to study and spending time doin my art !
memories some of e definition . and thing about global warming .
hahas .
die die llerhhs . saw iish MS PRICILLA YEONG set de paper .
damn iit . haiis . shujie osoh scared .
she kept telling miie she very nervous . hai wo kena influence . osoh quite nervous then .
hmmm , took about 5mins to do MCQ niia . wakao ~
many question don noe how to do . cham ar .
went bak to do lata . keep dreaming osoh . hahas =X

art . he walk pass , ii was lookin so angry .
stare =PP , LOLs .
shujie turn to look at miie . but nvm . ii continue doin my painting , pretending ii never see him .
osoh , ii pretending that ii don even noe hu he is .
but angry very good , then ii mixed well in my colour .
that's the colour ii wan to colour e apple . LOLs =DD

















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ENERGY ! wahahas . ( 26september2006 - BPP )

knn . HATEHIM so much until ii wanto kill him .
he suck .
attitude bastard .
you think ii wanto call you meh ?
is accidentally right !!! call you for what ?
you think ii boliao ar ? go call you , waste my money only .
you think you are the only one hu know how to angry , ii donno la .
knn .
walk our own way , walk our own way la .
you think ii care ? sorry , now ii wan you to know that ii DON CARE !!!
dont think ii like you then can xialan me la . scold me whenever you wanto
don be friend then don be friend la , you think ii wan ?
ii donno is my eye pa jiao or what ? must go wash properly le .
ii is stupid then will ggo cut my hand , cry or whatever .
ii dont care anything le , neither ii wun regret anything too .

iiHATEHIM to the core !!!




vomit today again .
siianx . three days llerhhs .
never eat for several night . scared lata vomit again .
hahas . maris then ask miie ii pregnant iizzit ?
LOLs . but of course not llarhhs .

haiis . having chinese paper today .
STRESS!!!
totally no mood to do it . get influence .
was cutting my hand b4 e paper start .

donno wad to write for my chinese 思涵 !
crashed e paper . re-write again .
脑子里一片空白，donno wad to write .
fcuk up .
dhen , tears nearly rolled down . eye already watery watery .
finished writing 思涵 , dhen iis compo .
sit there and stare for several minutes .
donno which question to chose . but in the end , chose Q3
about 偶像。 hahas
writing about ENERGY .
again just only write 1sentence , ii crashed e paper and re-write again .

paper2 osoh liydat , nearly cry out . haiis
ii don wan to cry llerhhs la . stupid siia miie .
cry dhen cut my hand .
fcuk lloh , I HATE MYSELF !!!

went to cwp to eat lunch , macdonald
with maris regina laykin and shujie
but first ii went to KFC to look for yokethin aiai .
there's jiale jos and crystalle .
yokethin saw ii cut my hand , she wanted to smack my hand dde .
but unsucessful . hahas =P jiale and jos say oh my god . erxin =D
ended up scolded by her . hmph
finishing eating , was waiting for regina and maris
ii get scolded by shujie too . she osoh wanted to smack my hand but ii ran away .
as usual , went to toilet after eating .
ii vomit again .
ytd and today ,
wadeva ii ate , ii will vomit out .
shit lloh .

moody moody .
wondering will the same thing happen again tomorrow test ?
(history and literature) god bless me .
cos ii don have history book .
haiis =(

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta !<3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim

2 october 2006
early in e morning , ii was so suay .
take cab to school , dhen drop my fon inside e cab .
buden the taxi driver , he drove bak to school and gib OM .
hahas . ii called alot of time to my fon . hahas =P

every subject teacher comes in , will say please revise ur work .
damn it , ii so bored down there .
keep revising the same thing , chinese
mdm salimah take 1period orf our english period to go through e history test we took last wed .
hoho , ii failed . 6/20 =(
nvm , many ppl failed too . =P
stay bak iin class after school , with maris and regina .
wanting to study , in the end , we chat and chat , listening to music .
all orf us have no mood no study .
sitting together chatting .
so , the 3 orf us thinking about e same thing .
break up with ... ... ( dotz)
dhen ii have already type out e msg and save in my folders .
hahas , wanting to send .
but they say ii will regret . so ii insisted to save in my folders .

at night , on fon with luoyun .
tell her about what my feeling for now and then .
he msg miie , ii didnt saw it . wait until we coup e fon dhen saw it .
he say he wanto break .
my tears just drop down so sudden ='(
ii donno wad to do at that point orf time . diedie
ii called maris , she asked miie don cry , but ii still cry .
dhen she say , walau , this afternoon just say iin class wan break now he say break .
ii say ya la . haiis ='(
cry and cry and cry .
dhen ii called yokethin , she asked miie nort to cry .
ii was just so blur lloh .
she say it nort worth to cry for him .
dhen she say he have no right to say break lloh ,
ii have already tolerate him for so long . but still nvm .
mum msg miie asked miie to call her , so ii asked yokethin to call bak in 5mins time .
so ii pretend that ii nort crying and called her
she talked until halfway , ii vomited out .
ii feel so disgusting .
dhen yokethin called bak . LOLs
msging maris ,
hahas =)
but they actually make miie laugh instead orf crying
they told miie to msg him and tell him :
actually this afternoon ii already wanto msg euu and say break dde ,
ii osoh type e msg out llerhhs , only my fren stop miie from sending .
say him until he lanlan .
but orf course this was the truth , but ii very good ii never send .
lata he might think that ii wan face niia , dhen say liydat .
eddie called miie ,
second line . hahas . he osoh another one , make miie laugh .
thank to euu guys =DD
hang all the line ,
ii went vomit again .
haiis . whiie liydat dde ?
ii only wanto noe whiie he wan break niia ma , don wan reply don wan reply llarhhs .
BIG DEAL ?

saw my handphone bill . ii goin to faint .
sending over thousand of msg . over bill until siiaox .
my mum goin to nag at me again once she saw e bill .
lucky last month over bill she didnt nag at me .
if not ... ... dotz

when to cut my hair jux now .
hmmm , still e same hair style . =X




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