white lies

善意的谎言
You know what i want,
but you can never make it.

Bad news! i have to stay in school after my last paper for F&N while others will be happily celebrating or so? Also i have go back to go on marking day for F&N. The school will not sponsor us any money for ingredients. Discussed and chose 4 dishes with teacher, which i feel pretty okay with it.
Listening comprehension a bad one! Didn't really paying attention when listening, I was thinking about other things.
I passed chemistry for CA (:

I WANT KIT KAT! I NEED KIT KAT!

Inevitable

I'm a very kind soul. Thought of drinking sweet drink early in the morning. So i bought two green tea. One for myself, another for Yana. Wanted to give Yana a surprise, but who knows she come to school with TWO bottles of green tea! Thank Yana for coaching me social studies! I passed class test for once.

English paper kills! i swear i'm gonna fail badly this time round again ): who will want to fail English -.- One paper down. Tomorrow MT listening comprehension, followed by MT intensive.
Nike Tank top! Nike red bottle! Converse bag! (:

I'm sad,
I'm lost,
I'm hurt,
More to go,
More to bear with,
But i don't want small little things to affect my emotion.

you

It's enough for today
Just a moment will do.

Didn't intend to update .. but just update for the sake of updating.
Tomorrow's first paper-English. Can't imagine myself taking examination again. Haven't even start revising. So, i should jolly well forget about passing with good great. I think that i'll definitely fail English.

Skipped dinner as i had a lunch cum dinner with Angelia and Sinle at Pizza hut. Still very full -.-
I drank so many cups of water there. Too thirsty already~
It's time to get a new water bottle soon. My bottle just spoilt yesterday's afternoon ):
I want nike tank top! from sportslink!!! (:

Did I, trust?

Monday blues.

Took height and weight measurement during PE. Great thing is that I didn't put on weight but grew taller. Well, i just think that the measurement was somehow wrong. I possibly can't grow 1.5cm taller within about month.
Watched '28weeks later' during LCD lesson. It's a M18 movie. The movie is so grossed! Didn't manage to finish watching the show ):
Mother tongue intensive after school. Combined with the express class. Had a test, this test will depend which class we'll go for the two weeks intensive. I don't want to be separate with Angelia. So i hope that we will score about the same marks. Wahaha :D

slept at approximately 1am last night. Tossed and turned. Resulted to be extremely tired, especially during English lesson. Mrs Tan keep on reminding me to sit up straight. But i still continued to lie on the table. Slept at Finna's shoulder. SO comfort~ Then i turned my head and realised many human beings is sleeping.

A happy day, i suppose.

Do i trust you?

{ xx }

如果感情能像下棋一样，

做任何决定都会三思，

那该多好。

很希望眼前的事实都是假的。

虽然明白历史会不断地重演，

但却不想放弃，

继续等待奇迹的出现。

HATRED

I HATE YOU!

Can your name taken out of my life?

爱有时让我感到空虚

over and over again

I've consider finished development. Even though i didn't do a nice one but i seriously don't give a damn already. I'm getting tired now, my mind are shutting down. I seriously feel that i wouldn't have time to do decision-making next week. Mid-year start next week, MT intensive throw in next week also. Cannot go for F&N extra lesson after school. I don't like the life I'm living now! It sucks. I cannot plan my time properly. Nowadays the weather is effing hot. The heat just made me so frustrated. I feel more annoy when things are not done!

Tell me, how long can i tolerate all this nonsense?

Finna's post

I blog for the sake of Finna. She demanded me to blog one long post about her. Since i just finish doing coursework, i shall blog about it as to fulfil her wish. Hehe

Finna seated next to me in class. she's my partner. She always hyper and crapped with me in class. When we have nothing better to do, we'll sing song :D She has alot of "boyfriends".
We have been in the same class since Seconday One, which means five year of classmate. We starting getting very close only last year, i think. I used to call her tweety bird in Sec1.
Finna always bully me in class =/ Yesterday, she went home after school. When she come for coach, she purposely used all things red in colour. Red hairband, red watch and red crumpler bag :@
We will help one another in school work when we faced problem solving questions. I think she loves cookie monster. Finna loves to bite people also. She copy me de. I'm the one started to bite her first, then she go around biting others.
Today, Finna and I had lunch at pizza hut. We talked about our things. We're late for coach already. we laughed like some asshole when arriving school. laughed non-stop.
Finna has small ear, like monkey. Oooops! anyway, Finna is a monkey.
WE LOVE TO SAY 'AWESOME'! :D

enough

Sometimes, it's just too much for me to bear.

cease the time

History kept on repeating ...

slept very earlier last night, like after dinner. Too tired
Too busy with school work, everyday got F&N coach until 5+. Yesterday ended a little early, helped teacher to do something. So many things to catch up for F&N ): development is only 20% completed, deadline this Saturday night! Some times i really cannot take it on school work. I really regretted coming back to Sec5, cannot cope it. I guessed i will flunk badly for tuesday's F&N test. Totally got no idea how to do the paper, clueless one.
I think i won't online that often, need to start revising for mid-year. Slacked too much last year, all the foundation is gone.
Our class cupboard is damaged as the boys throwed Walter in. It's hilarious. Copying English vocabulary words is better than doing comprehension cloze.
Thank Yana for teaching me Social studies. I can handle the test that day (:

p/s: missed
still .. i believed it will happen again someday

School suck

First paper for MYE is next wednesday. My Chinese teacher told us that there's intensive next Monday and Tuesday, then break for MYE and then resume after MYE. she also said that Saturday will have to go back to school ._. I thought i can give myself a Saturday break.

So many tests tomorrow. F&N, Social studies, chemistry and continue Chinese test.
Didn't get to finish chinese compostion writing, writing crap. Also screwed up for today's Emath test. Went in the class late not knowing what to do, thought teacher gave worksheet to do. In the end, it's T-E-S-T. Finna told me question two easier, so i thought is two question choose one. I didn't even bother doing the first question then until she told me faster do.

Ashamed to be a F&N student. Sucha failure ):
Yana, you haven teach me SS ley ): I better go read up some of the things now

missed.......

IF ...

My Lil' Enen's birthday~ she looked so cute!

I just reached home an hour ago, bathe and sitting right in front of computer. Feeling so great after having a warmth bath. Had a sumptuous dinner (: I still feel so full now. Durian cake is nice leyyyyyyy :D
cousin drove me to many places this afternoon. I guessed i put on weight again, somebody say i put on weight also ): Crapped with relatives after dinner. Many upcoming birthdaysssssss too.

Girls, please don't remind me of yesterday night, especially inside the bus. It's hilarious!

I chose not to probe and to know at times. It hurt, as well as tiring to face the cruel reality.
If everything could remain this way or could be better.
Some times, your smile can make me even stronger .......

NO Turning Back

I can't sleep .. I just can't put myself to sleep. So i came to blog early in the morning. I woke up every hour, checked phone then back to bed. It's just so sickening when my question is not answered. Somehow thing aren't get better.
I'm going out now, just to get roti prata .. :D

I really hate you! How great if you're vanish forever and never return. So that i'll never see you or hear your name again. I can never be happy when i speak about you. You're sickening.

let it be like this

You may have forgotten about the bond you developed with someone in the past, but they are back in the picture. It's time to sort through your emotions and figure out what's right for you.

Enen birthday tomorrow ley (:

breakfast with Finna. CIP was pretty good as compared to last year. Group with Finna and Yana. Finished off quite early, slacked, waiting for the uncle to pick up the recycled materials. Got one auntie very good. She gave us 3 packets of Ribena and 1 can of red bull. Haha. We bought Yakult from the Yakult auntie also (:
Home to rest.

Just had dinner with Angelia, Finna and Yana at al-ameen. I left half the rice untouch. Anyway, planned to have Curry Fish head but don't have already ):
It has been so long since we really talk, joke and crap.

i just crave for all this suddenly!
(egg) Roti prata, Curry Fish Head, is awaiting for me.
Fish & chips, Pizza, Garlic Bread, Mushroom soup, Pasta, Donut is queueing behind.
Still got more to come.

could be better

the cookie is extreme nice ley[:

It's was a tiring day yesterday. I've to rush home after F&N coach, which ended only at 430pm. I have special request from teacher to let me leave earlier. Changed clothing then off to VCH with huihan and su xian. On our way there, we got to know that Dance has clinched a Gold. We started become nervous. Alighted at city hall and cabbed down to VCH. met shiphrah and co. there.
I broke down immediately when i heard the result. Dinner at marina square. The scenery is beautiful ..
HuiHan, i know your secret hor! but i won't tell anyone =/

F&N coursework due tomorrow, latest night. Managed to finish Research but I'm stuck badly at Development. Someone help me please. wahaha :D
Chemistry and Social Studies test has postponed to next Tuesday!
ATTENTION TO ELLIYANA BINTE ALI: I NEED YOUR HELP BADLY. I UNDERSTAND NOTHING FOR SOCIAL STUDIES.

FINNA! I Miss You. Why you food poisoning? What did you eat? haha. When you're not around, no one crap and hyper with me!

p/s: show is coming tomorrow.
& i want V8! i want Fish & Chips.

Photos

Sopranos

Altos

Above: Baritone; Expression so bitter

Below: Fun shot

Act cute dddde =/

Teachers act cute only. wear elmo tee =/

Ms Judith action very fast. She uploaded the photos an hour ago.

our day

We did a good job! Hopefully we can get what we has aimed for. Luckily i still can walk quite normal, just that it's a bit slow. I realised that i couldn't sit for a long time, otherwise when i stand and walk it will be extremely pain.
Practicing throughout the day. This time is much more nervous than the previous SYF.
My throat and lips is dry now as i didn't drink much water.

Tomorrow:
No mass run for me. English oral. F&N Coach until 5.30pm and rushing to VCH to listen for the results. I'll try to ask teacher to release me earlier for coach then.

Many upcoming class test,
Today: E-math
Tomorrow: Chemistry
Friday: Social studies
Next Tuesday: F&N

I'm tired .. I'm famished! & headache ..

recover soon

I'm sorry, I wasn't around.

Mid-Year is only bloody two weeks away. A damn tmd thing was that there's F&N coach everyday until 5.30pm! I think i'll have no time to revise for other subjects when i reach home late. It's F*ing tiring. I think i'll go crazy for F&N.

Didn't sleep well last night. The blanket keep touches my wound and the pain is unbearable. Tossed and turned around till i fall asleep. Fall asleep during English lesson.
SYF tomorrow. Maggi Mee for dinner tonight.

Get well soon......

All about you

Woke up extreme late this morning. Fell down during PE. There goes another bad injury on my right knee ): I noticed that my right knee is full of scars.

Can i skip school tomorrow? Just don't feel like going for F&N class. Fats & enzymes test tomorrow. My brain absorb nothing when reading the textbook. I guess Mdm Paramjit will scold or nag at those people who didn't submit their coursework. I feel that my coursework is not up to standard. I think i should send for her to check through so that she will give some comments.

I miss the golden days.......

第二順位

Show is coming to Singapore next Saturday. I Miss Him :D
This song is one of my favourite Show's song. The first time i heard it, i love it. It's Yana favourite song too. Have been listening to Show's song recently. Urgh, I haven't collect my disc from East Point Mall. Have been busy lately, plus i lazy to travel so far. I missed watching Hot Shot out of the blues.

Decided to stay at home to complete research & development. I couldn't find any useful information. I really have the urge to drop F&N. I really hate doing coursework now! It's making me so pissed when i don't know what to do. We're so far behind time. By right according to the time plan, we should get started at planning, preparing for Execution which is the real practical exam. But we're still at research and belonged to the low band one. Anyway, i've decided three dishes and teacher say okay. I'm low. I feel irritated by it. I'm getting bored.

Tomorrow, Monday not blues.
I miss someone now.......

Life

Stop invading my privacy, it's enough. I had enough as well. Please show some respect for others before you want others to respect you.

Life are always full of ups and downs. Don't ask too much when you know it's impossible to make it. Things may not end up the way you want but this is just part of a life. In life, no one is perfect. The more you want, the harder you push will only cause things even difficult to happen and handle. Thus, it will make it awkward.

Irreversible

Is indeed a Good Friday!
A big apologise to my two girls that i couldn't make it for Today's outing.

I don't feel good now. The feeling is back! It's indescribable. There are many things hidden inside my heart that i wanted to say. I don't know how to put my feelings into words the moment i talked to you. So many questions in my mind which i don't wish to probe on it or even think but this never fail to re-appear.
Time couldn't turn back. Once missed, it will never return. Same goes to that, it cannot be replaced by another day. It all went back to the same old situation which i simply don't understand. I know it cannot be push too hard, but there must be a solution. It cannot stay on like this forever right. Sometimes, i just wish that i don't know anything and be a simple person leading a simple life. I also wish that it can start all over again.
Why must we make thing so difficult for everyone?

bereft of hope

You've broke the trust.
This has slowly becoming a shadow of mine.
Everything has changed. you've changed, i've changed. I slowly realised that you're no longer the one I used to know. Or maybe I don't really understand right from the start until now.

Such a clumsy girl. I spoilt my clothes just now! It's a new top and not wear before. I'm so going back to the shop to buy again. KissMyAss!
Everything's not right. F&N is killing me.

rewind the bygones

Has i rely too much until i'm used to have you in my life,
or it's simply a love?
It's not as easy as you think. Well, is there still love in you?

Almost here

I almost put that stick in to my mouth without further consideration.
life is getting tougher and stress till i couldn't control and tolerate it anymore.

Something not very happening had happened. It scared me out of my life at that moment. It's going to be a nightmare for me. I hope that I'll never see you again. Sicko!

Hall performance is considered a good one. Just that people seating at the back couldn't hear. The altruistic in hall is bad, the sound is hidden there. Finna and Angelia both commented that the latin song is nice (:
Teacher say the performance is considered a practice so no more practice in the afternoon. Back to class for chemistry coach.
Missed many lesson yesterday and today. Missed 4 periods of Chinese. I think 胡老师 must be happy. Cause i'm not in the class to make noise.

Will be joining the sec4 express for English Oral tomorrow. No Chinese coach for me tomorrow! wahaha :D
Next wednesday, i'm excuse from lesson the whole day. -.-

It's a relief

i'm glad that you're alright.
everything is alright.

I'm considering whether to close down my blog ( temporary or long term ) or put as private. Quite sick and tired of things going a round these days/weeks/month. I post what i like, some human don't like or cannot take it, just shoo and never come back.
Here, i don't need anyone's concern. Stop those gossip if you're starting to spread or doubt with. I cannot take and carry on with all the nonsense around me ):

It's a tiring day. slept late last night and woke up as early as 5am this morning. get prepared and headed to school. Rehearsal at Victoria Concert Hall is a good one, i supposed. I could hear the sound clearly which i find it pretty nice. Though teacher claimed that some of the parts were too soft.
Back to school at noon. rehearsal in the hall for tomorrow's school performance. changed back into school uniform then back to class for the last period. Managed to keep my eye opened. Slept throughout the time while waiting for coach to start. 45mintues of resting is still not enough.
Went to Sun Plaza with Sinle and Angelia after coach. The Xin Wang Hong Kong cafe food is really suck. Can you imagine there is more than one fly in the restaurant. Also, Iced water is charge at 40cents per cup.
Bused back to woodlands interchange. In order to kill time, both of them walked home with me. How sweet :D

My mood isn't feeling good. Sometime walking home really can make me feel better. Especially with my two ladies companied, i felt much better. Angelia, i hope you do feel better as well. Cheer uppppppppp

我输了?

God will protect you

I'll pray hard to god that nothing will happen to you. You will be fine.

It has gone for so long, still i don't understand. Is this the way things will be like? Is this how you want me to accept the reality, facing the fact? You once showered me with love and care. Now, you're irreplaceable.
Will you be happy?

i can't let go of you

Photos

Sports Day

Sports day indeed a great one. Enjoyed myself there. watching people running, talking and joking with my classmates. congratulations to the boys, they clinched a 1st position for boys relay. Well Done! As well as a Silver for mixed relay. Changed into class tee shirt immediately when we reached woodlands stadium as we got only that morning. i love our class tee. the logo very nice :D
Seoul Garden after sports day ( Finna, Yana, Jane, May, Chongwei, Walter, Anwar, Derick ). Aftermath, headed to Mdm Salimah's condo for swimming. Mostly the guys swim. Finna, May, Jane and myself was like watching them swim. Chat with May and Jane alot.
Finna and myself was pushed into the pool. -.-

Haven received any photos yet as it was all in Jane's camera. Eh Jane Liu, faster send to me. (:

i don't need anyone's concern except yours.
how are you now?

Till The End

All these precious moments

With you by my side

Must be a gift from heaven

That's holding me all night

/

27 days to Mid-Year, which is only 3weeks plus. Gonna start revising

No mass run for me this morning, got a letter. walked one round (:
lessons as per normal. Any human being, please be a good soul to remind me to bring compasses on Monday for math lesson.
Choir was fun. Ms Yee is alil funny. Gallop - gallop ( with actions ). Choir is improving in every practice, be it the pitch or so. i love today's Choir voice. It is so much better than before. I do hope that we will get to our goal. exactly two more weeks to SYF, i guess daily practices will start next week? ..
Did badly for Chinese Oral. I saw the teacher recorded my marks. only scored 25 marks out of 40, which is only a pass. I'm not satisfied with this poor result. The teacher say, hmm, good good. In the end, 25 marks. For the conversation, i haven't finish answering my question then he proceed to another question ): This kind of standard surely pull Mid-Year and Prelim marks down ):
i hope i can do well in O'level oral.

Sports day tomorrow. Will be running for choir relay -.- i don't want to run ddddddddddde.
Seoul Garden with classmates after sports day :D

listening to the ocean's symphony.
if you want me to stop missing you, it's impossible.

April Fool

April Fool Day!

Start a new month like again~ I remembered telling Sinle that time passed so fast as though tomorrow i wake up is O'level already. I might as well say is end of the world (:
To be exact, 60days left to O'level mother tongue paper. 6 month 27 days to O'level.

Skipped today's lunch. Intend to skip dinner as well. Currently no appetite for any food.
Has been feeling kind of low now.