my holiday is within the circle .
either out to fragrant , selling ice cream , go out or at home !

我只是想要快了！
我要快乐，不要悲伤 ！xD

happy moments can make me not thinking of him .
ii don't wish to think of him . ii get enough ! hurt enough ! pain enough ! ))':
ii don't want to be alone . ii hate him , ii hate everything .
ii don't believe in miracle ! don't believe there's true love for now being ! xD
ii did say that ii want to give up on him , but everything doesn't seems to go well !
and ii've been looking back the past !
everythings changed . he've changed ? ( for what ii think )
for that 1month 2weeks , it was fucking shit
ii pretend it had never happened before , pretend that it was a beautiful dream ! )):
guys have many excuses when they wanna a break-up !
why ? why ? why ? and why ?
he is not the one ii know before ! ii not the one ii used to be last time !
human changed ??? ;D

想要你快乐！

ii don't get what's friends ! ii'm not a good friends to them !
what am ii to them ? toy being fool around ?
ii feel that ii've been fooled by them !! sad luhs )):
why must ii always be the one who give in to her ? why not her ?
she seems not to understand my thoughts !
maybe she have not been treated like this before .
to her , what ii do is always wrong ! what they does is always right !
ii treated her as my friend , but she treat me as what ? ii don't know .
ii'm so afraid to be with them , as for now . maybe ii not part of their friends le ba ?
what is friends ?
ii get enough ! ii don't put my anger onto them anymore .
ii agree that ii used to be too attitude towards them , but now ii don't !
ii can simply throw my attitude to them , but have ii been like this before holiday ?
ii always the one who give in . ii enough of uu guys !
putting a fake smile infront of them doesn't seems to be like me ! that's not part of my character !
others thought that we are good friends ! but they are wrong , we often quarrel too .
izzit because we have been laughing together , hanging around together .
that makes uu think that we are good friends ?

ii don't have friends . ii don't have any choices !
在他们眼里　，　我什么都不是　！
我没有的选择！　
对不起！这就是我能说的话 ！


ii want to be myself !
我只想做我自己 !

i miss him ,

hao xiang ta ! <3

waiting , )):

`phanie LOVEhim